To not have Control is Control

At times we think we have control over everything around us and at times we know that we cannot control everything. Is it because we know that we cannot control everything that our human nature try’s to anyways? Or is it just us not wanting to face reality of know there is nothing in this world we can control over all.

In Donnna Masini poem “Slowly” there is a hungry snake and a rabbit, the rabbit is put into the glass case with the snake. Other than fighting for its life it just sits there calm and stiff and just let the snake prey over it. Once the snake is ready it just bites into the rabbit neck and swallow it whole. The rabbit still did not move as it seen its fate coming right before its eyes.

In my perspective I believed the rabbit knew it could not do anything to get out the cage and whether it fought for its life or not the snake would have won. So it decided not to fight because its fate was already chosen for it. I believe this poem shows us that we do not always have control over what happen to us. Depending on what the circumstances are, sometimes we know that so we choose not to fight it we just accept it.

In Thomas Lux poem “To help a money cross the river” there is a monkey that has to cross a river to get some food so it can continue on living, there is a person that is in a tree (or on higher ground) that see the monkey…along with two animals that is preying on the monkey. But, the monkey does not see the two predators so it does not know that it is in danger. As the monkey starts to cross the river the person on higher ground keep watch to make sure the monkey is safe from all predators. When he sees the predators getting ready to approach the monkey he shoots behind the monkey so it can move faster across the bank. The monkey did not know that it was in danger, not by the person that we shooting behind it but in danger because it had predators ready to eat it.

In my opinion this poem is saying we do not always know what is going to happen because we are not always aware of what’s around up so that means we don’t have control over things. The monkey did not see its predators, so it did not have any fear, but because someone was looking out for the monkey it lived giving it another moment in time.

These two poems are similar because they teach the same thing; we do not have control over everything we do. In certain situations we do not know what is around us so we choose to make a decision because it is in our nature and if something out of the ordinary happens we tend to fight or make a change because we know there is a possible better outcome. Whereas, with other situations when we know it will not get any better we just take it as it is and let whatever happen happens. Which shows we do not have any control over what happens.

The Great Escape.

The world is not like the fairytales I would read about. There are people that is mean, that will trick you, and that think because you are a little kid you do not understand what Is going around you. That is not always true. In the book “Stitches: A memoir” the character David finds comfort in drifting off into a fantasy world, like Alice adventures in Wonderland, just so he can get away from the things that was going on in the house. Another Outlet he had was when he would draw pictures of characters and just use his imagination so that the characters would come to life; it showed that he was not trapped in his surroundings.

I can relate to David because how I was raise, when you are a kid you do not have a say so in anything. When an adult tell you to do something you do it, you do not talk back, and because you are a little kid your outlook or point of view is not welcome unless it was asked for (Often never happened). So because I had those boundaries I did like I was suppose to when I was around adults but when I wanted to “get away” from reality I just turned on my radio and listened to music.

Music was my outlet as a child and still is to this day. When I was younger I would get my mama’s headphones plug them into my CD player, lay down, close my eyes, and let the music take me away. Because I was a child and people (adults) really did not listen to me I would turn up my music so loud and as my thoughts started to come about I would think of all the things I wanted to say whether they where good or bad and how I thought I would have said it if I was an adult; whether I would yell it, say it calmly or however I wanted.

Over the years because I was brought up like that, that mind set has been instilled in me. Even though I am an adult now, when it comes to people that are much older than me I still do not talk back nor voice me opinion unless it was asked for. I know because I am adult I can voice my opinion on certain situation because I can understand more (Even though I understood most things as a child as well) and people expect me to have a better understanding on things, but I choose not to because at some points I feel that what I say may come off the wrong way and I do not want to seem disrespectful.

So I would not end up being disrespectful I hold in MOST of my thoughts that I wanted to say, and walk away. Once I get to the place where I can exhale my thoughts, I make sure I have my headphones, my phone or computer nearby, and a lay down, and let my mind let out all the frustration, annoyance, and irritation that I had built up.

Music is my Outlet because as you see it helps me relax, get the “bad” thoughts out of my head, and allow me to express my thoughts even though I am not speaking verbally. The best part about music is there are so many different styles so there will always be a song that matches your mood at that specific time.

Music is still my outlet. I am not the neither disrespectful nor ignorant type adult that says the first thing that comes to mind, I think before I speak and chances is if it is not something nice I will not saying it at that point I will just wait til I come in my room and turn the music up LOUD and let the music say everything I wanted to say.