A meaningful event that has happened in my adulthood was
becoming a mother to this awesome little girl…though she is not my biological
daughter blood couldn’t make us any closer. A while back I was talking to one
of my closest friends and he was telling me about a situation that occurred
with the mother of his child. Long story short her mother walked out of her
life after we talked for days about this situation he asked me the biggest most
heartfelt question ever, he asked me would I take one of the led role in his
daughter life as her mother. That point on she has been like my shadow, my
motivation, and my coffee in the morning. Everything I do now I do it for her, I’m
so afraid to fail in things because I’ll feel like I would let her down, I don’t
want her to grow up thinking that she wasn’t good enough for her biological
mother to stay around because she’s such an awesome kid. I want her to be proud
of me and know that I love her as if she was my own. Before her dad asked me to
be such an important role in her life I was like I never ever want kids at all,
I still don’t plan on having kids at all but if I do I would be upset at all
simply because if this little girl can melt my heart away I can only imagine
what another baby can do. Since she has came into my life I have grew up so
much and making better decisions though I’m still struggling with time management
everything else is fine. When I feel like giving up I just have to think of her
smile and use that as fuel to get me back on track. I’m so honored that her dad
asked me to be the mother of his child, we might not be together much less the perfect
adults to raise a child but I think if we can put our heads together we can figure
it out…this experience is different from majority of my adult encounters
because never in my life have I thought I would be a mother to a child much
less to a child that’s not mine and then not even be upset about it, I must admit
I was scared as ever because I didn’t know the first step of being a mother but
after talking to family members and using what they told me as a guide I think I’ve
did pretty okay this far. Now that she has been in my life the worse thing that
could happen to me is if something was to happen to her or if somebody takes
her away from me. I don’t know what I would do without this little girl and I don’t
plan on finding out. One of the most important lessons this experience has
taught me and is still teaching me is you don’t know how much of a difference
one person can make in your life and how much of a difference you can make I theirs
if you don’t just try. I’m glad God put her in my life and I hope I make her
proud one day.
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